6 months have
passed… I have now moved on, though still at times I wonder what happened that
day. Still not able to figure out if she had any feelings for me or anyone else
or she just confided something personal to a stranger. These are the things for
which I might never get answers but then that’s life you don’t get everything
you want.
These things,
feelings they just come in between for a small time and then go, don’t really
affect me now. It was just a usual day, we were on our way to office and we
made a pit stop at Ram Bhaiya’s place for breakfast. We were almost done with
it when my usual day turned into an unusual one. It was Akansha with her
friends in the same white dress when I was saw her for the first time, she was
walking towards the college. First I thought I was just imagining things but
then I was not, it was her. She looked at me and looked away, I think
she didn't recognize me. I wouldn't blame her… it has
been 6 months and we had hardly seen each other before that. But then it was an
unusual day, so she turns back and looks at me and smiles.
Haiiiii… by god
hassi toh kasam se itni pyari hai na poocho mat…
She walks
towards me and says “Hi”.
Me: Hi… How are you?
Akansha: I am good…
What’s up with you? Long time…
Me: Ya… long time…
What brings you back to
Bangalore?
Akansha: Nothing… had
few papers to submit and collect mark sheets and all… So on your way to office?
Me: Yes… Came here for breakfast.
How’s your fiancé, when are you guys getting married?
I don’t know
what I was thinking but I had to ask. She wasn’t pleased to hear those
questions.
Me: I am sorry did
I ask you anything wrong?
Akansha: No No… It’s
okay… We broke up about 2 months back…
Me: Sorry to hear
that…
Akansha: Don’t be… I am
not… Rather I am glad we broke off… That bastard was cheating on me with his
girlfriend.
Me: What a jerk… I don’t know what
people think when they do these kinds of things.
Akansha: Exactly! At
least think of the other person. You don’t have any rights to mess with other
person’s life by lying to them.
I should be
feeling sad for her but itna kamina hoon main ki I was happy that her
engagement broke off. I was like yes!!! abhi bhi chance hai…
Me: It’s okay… everything will be
all right. You will find someone better.
Yah obviously
that someone better is me… Girl don’t look anywhere else I am standing right in
front of you. These were the happy thoughts going through my mind…
Akansha: Okay I am
getting late… I will see you later.
Me: Can I have your number? I will
give you a call sometime if it’s okay with you.
We exchanged
numbers and we went our ways. I called her few times after that… We met outside
at few places for lunch or casually… We grew close to each other in a short
while. Yes we liked each other but admitting it was yet to happen. Hours would
fly by over a cup of coffee… just sitting and talking to each other. Jab saath
mein na ho tab bhi staying in touch through one or the other app. It was like a
dream come true we were both in love with each other.
We didn't express our love to each other, yes, but then we will
do it when the time is right.
So Akansha was
heading back to Mumbai and we decided to meet for the last time before she
left. I don’t know the thought of her leaving saddened me. I didn't want this
to get over and the fact that we haven’t actually told each other about our
feelings. It can be I am just assuming things, maybe she doesn't have
the same feelings for me, maybe she just considers me as a close friend I
don’t know. All these thoughts clouded my mind.
Of all the
places we decided to meet at Ram Bhaiya’s place, where all this started. We
reached there and bought ourselves a cup of tea and sat around a corner.
Me: So you are
leaving?
Akansha: Yes…
Unfortunately I have to go.
Me: What plans
after going there?
Akansha: Will be
working for a while… have to look for a job. Will you be coming to
Mumbai any time soon?
Me: Not sure. I will definitely give you call if I am.
Akansha: You better…
We settled the
bill for what might be our last tea at Ram Bhaiya’s place. We looked at each
other, smiled and said “So? This is it huh?”
I said “Let
me walk you till home…”
We started
walking… None of us was saying anything… Silence was scaring me more.
Something
compelled me from inside and I broke the silence… “I love you…”, I said.
I had to say it. It was now or probably never.
She didn't say
anything… and just kept on walking. Her house was nearing and her silence
was making things more awkward for me. I was feeling embarrassed. A tear drop
in my eye, thinking I have lost her forever. I didn't want things to
end like this, I wanted happiness for myself, and yes I was being selfish.
I was about to cry when she said “Thoda aur late karte toh I would have been
in Mumbai…”
I had this
puzzled look on my face when she held my hand, smiled and looked me in the eyes
and said “I love you too…”
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